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I
was recently diagnosed with a life threatening medical
conditions that will require major surgery for me. It
is of course a very stressful time. There are several
other issues at the moment that are only increasing my
anxiety level and making things more difficult for me.
While I am being told to remain as calm as possible,
I am in fact feeling so stressed that sometimes I just
have to go in my bedroom, close the door and try and
force myself to sleep for a bit just to let my body relax.
The other day I was lying in my bed
trying to sleep and was becoming quite agitated that
my husband had come in and kept pacing around the room
and sitting on the bed. After pacing around the foot
of the bed several times I would feel the weight of
someone sitting near my feet, then the weight would
be gone and the pacing would begin again. I was sad,
and I was tired and I just wanted to sleep, but he
just wouldn’t stop, so out of frustration I sat up
in bed to tell him to leave and let me sleep but there
was no one there and my bedroom door was closed. I
had been alone in the room the entire time.
At that moment, I knew that it must
have been my mother, worried about me and watching
over me. Oddly enough, not believing in ghosts, it
did not disturb me, I was somehow comforted by the
fact that it was ok to go to sleep, my mom was watching
over me and I would indeed wake up and not die in my
sleep. Similar occurrences have happened twice more
in the past few days, reassurance that someone up above
is keeping a close watch.
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